The Bottom

The good news for you is that you can only go up from here. You've hit rock bottom, so it's time to pick yourself up and become great. I would not worry about starting a company at the moment. First you need to work on your own self-esteem.

This means that you must start eating healthy and exercising. Condition your body and mind for the road ahead, or else you'll fail once again. The great thing about life is that you have a choice in everything.

Take personal responsibility for everything that's gone wrong in your life. You made it all happen; no outside forces. But, this also means that you have the power to make things right again by making the right choices. You get to write the script that is your life; the power is all yours.

From this point on until you die, you have the power to shape your life through your choices. Never forget that. You can choose to be bitter or sad, or you can choose to be optimistic. How you interpret events that happen to you determines whether or not you'll have a positive outlook or not.

Get a real job. Pay the bills. Get healthy. Exercise. Focus on the essentials. Worry about dating after that.

You are not alone. (http://www.fastcompany.com/3029883/bottom-line/11-famous-entrepreneurs-share-how-they-overcame-their-biggest-failure)

Take a long walk outside, the worst is behind you. Realize what's good in your life right now. Tomorrow is a new day.

I was at this point (minus the divorce + kids, add some other terrible family problems though) a few years ago. I was in my mid twenties and had pretty dark thoughts. Woke up one day at 260lbs and unemployed, went for a walk. Next day I went for a run. Same with the day after and the night after that. Anxiety was creeping into panic attacks and running made the pain feel better.

Started tracking all the food I was eating, stopped running, and started a well designed bodybuilding routine. Picked up a lot of heavy weight and put it down. Simple and it has transformed my body and mind. Start today, even if it's just walking outside. You will look back one day and you will not believe you were once 330, and you will feel better mentally. Don't forget to take shirtless progress pictures, I've heard many people claim that was their biggest regret in the process - that they wish they had pictures from day 1. Good luck brother!

Don't liquidate ANYTHING that you don't have to. Anyone who gave anything to you was accepting risk for something that may have been returned. You don't owe your shirt on your back. You owe what you initially agreed to under the circumstances of the agreement. If you couldn't meet those conditions, the loss is to be felt on both sides of the agreement.

You don't realize how temporary all of these problems are. You can dramatically change your life by May 2015 with this approach:

All of the following require behavior modification. Nothing will come easy until it becomes a habit. Most important thing to do is to get started.

You can lose at least 100 pounds in the next year. Eating healthy and exercising are a "twofor" -- they will address your physical AND mental issues at the same time.

Buy a juicer and make yourself a veggie+fruit based juice for breakfast. Drink it every day. During your juice preparation (which is time consuming) , listen to podcasts. There are several buddhist/meditation/mindfulness programs available through podcast today. You could listen to these as part of your therapy.

Take antidepressants, but do so sparingly as they tend to enhance appetite. You can get Indian generic brand lexapro (escitalopram) for a fraction of the brand name cost.

Practice meditation for 30 minutes a day, no less.

Read profound literature. Dostoevsky. Ayn Rand.

Think of Willpower as a reserve. You deplete your willpower reserve with anything that isn't a habit. So, the more you habitualize these routines, the more willpower you will have to do other important things in your life.

You may NOT have reached rockbottom. As a jazz singer once said "There is a bottom below the bottom you know". If you have a roof over your head and money for food be grateful.

I once thought I was at rock bottom and then it got worse and I ended up homeless because my company failed and I didn't have a back up plan.

Make a back up plan, get a job, keep your start up as a passion project. Focus on your life.