I’m stuck.
I started a business while I was still studying, got the diploma and pushed as hard as possible to make it a success.
After 2 years of effort, I had to face reality (ok ok ok I was not making a single euro, had to live on my parents donations and my girlfriend’s salary), and found a job, I mean a real job, a job with a salary. (and with weekends off, vacations, company car, etc etc….)
That was brutal, and the first one who tells me that it’s easy to give up is a liar. Cost was huge, not talking about money, I had none, but social cost. I’m sure I’m not an isolated case: when you give up, you wake up, and your social life that was on autopilot before becomes a problem.
Anyway, this job led to many experiences, the big advantage of big companies, learning curve progressing, yummy, all the stuff I’ll need to be successful next time. Kept pushing, not that much on the ladder, but hard on getting more and more competencies.
That’s great but it can’t last forever, after many years in a very comfy environment, the entrepreneurial devil is back, and he’s knocking at the door more and more frequently.
But…
I have settled in the meantime. I was a student, lucky enough to get some love money for the basics, low maintenance. I’m now married, wife with an “ok” income but not stable, invested in real estate (ie with long term debt to pay monthly), and I’m higher maintenance now.
I could give up on the higher maintenance, but I’m married now… My personnal risk management is now telling me: You’re the man who is in charge, you need a safe bet, or you’ll may put your relationship in danger. Why the hell do you want to stop getting this nice pay check every month?
So the only current option is to find a project to work on in my free time, that’s reducing significantly the possible options, but better than nothing when the devil is bouncing in my head.
I must confess, comfort is killing entrepreneurism, and I’m a very good example.