I am a guy in late 20’s, last few years I was freelancing with on/off success, always stressed about getting the next client to pay my bills. Recently I started a long-term remote work relationship with an amazing startup and suddenly all my financial worries are gone. I make multiple times more than the national average and make more than 10x more than some of my friends.
But here’s the thing, I lost my motivation and feel empty, I jumped ahead too fast. I don’t know what to do. And I can’t talk about this with anyone, people would think I am a jerk to complain about making so much money while still having so much free time left. I now feel like even a bigger outsider to people around me, than I already was as a freelancer working from home. Then I watch some youtube videos about chinese mothers getting paid peanuts to sustain their families and feel even more alien. I was always super passionate about learning and evolving, but now that I reached the financial stability, I don’t feel the same way anymore.
I am wondering if learning the skills I was chasing was just conditional on trying to achieve some financial success. This is not how I imagined finally not struggling financially would be. I really don’t like to hide things, but I can’t talk about this without alienating people around me either. I am lost. What do I do?