I’ve got this month to pull something off, otherwise I’m screwed and looking for a job. I’m scared as hell that I can’t do it.

For me that's a good thing as far as productivity goes. Back up against the wall, I can pull 16 hour days without thinking about it and get a ton done. If it's in you, go all out so you know you can hang your hat on giving it everything at the end of the day.

Maybe we should connect...I'm sort of in a similar position.

Sounds like you should start looking for a job now.

Is there room in the boat. I think I should be in it too.

Don't worry. It's not the event itself that is causing you to be scared but your thinking about the event. Take a deep breath and give it a good shot without compromising your health, sleep or sanity. It's just another learning experience and there will be 10 million of these on your journey. The first time doing something is always a bit ungraceful and messy, but this is part of the learning. Good luck!