I can’t work alone … I’m crippled at even the thought of working alone. Sometimes I think my main motivation for working is that I can show others how good I am. I can work endlessly when i’m working with someone.

Should you share this with a psychiatrist or psychologist?

Op here.. I would if i had the money to do it :(

But i think when i wrote this yesterday i was in panic..and also its mostly inertia.. once is start going, i work well.

Im taking a 2-3 day break and planning shit for next week to get started again (after my co-founder left).

I think one of the ways i can force myself to work is making commitments to meeting / calling certain people. That way i will be forced out of bed and break that inertia.

I feel the same way. I just had the same feeling proven more strongly yesterday. I am an excellent in-class-student. I finish assignments before a lot of people. I am hot on my notes once a lecture begins and I ace a lot of what I learn in the room. That's all great but once I set foot on my property, earth's gravity becomes much stronger, especially when I try to work. Excercising at home ends up with me laying on the floor, trying to will myself up. I tried working out at a gym with some friends yesterday and I pushed myself like never before. I don't think that I could survive long alone.